"I am no longer just passing through the world, but digging deep and collecting moments' ~ Joan Anderson, A year by the Sea.
I reached a milestone earlier this year. I turned 50. Helen Keller once wrote 'One should never count the years - one should count one's interests." However I am happy to count the years and I am grateful to have reached this age as a couple of years ago it seemed unlikely that I would. So to me this fiftieth year is indeed hallowed.
In 2014 I undertook my healing journey. Not able to work for a year, I rediscovered who I was and what I valued.
In 2015 I returned to work and found once again I had to undertake an unspeakably hard challenge as I re-entered the workforce. I won't go into details as to why it was so hard returning to work, as I want to try and keep focused on the positive.
So 2016 has been my Jubilee year. It has been much less challenging then the two preceding years. For much of the last 12 months I have taken the motto "It is what it is". This motto has been very grounding for me and has helped me accept situations as they are, without regretting 'how they should be', as far as my opinion is concerned.
Lately, though, I have been feeling a stirring in my spirit. The desire to not just pass through the world as Joan Anderson wrote, but to dig deep and collect the moments. New and as yet hazy goals are appearing on the horizon of my thoughts. Glowing gently, yet persistent enough to keep invading my awareness…..